哥谭中央警署情感生活专区

今年圣诞浪在外面,没空产粮,但是读到一篇让人眼睛流汗的McDanno,摘抄一下以作记录

原文: A Study in Touch

作者:VictoriaAGrey

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故事接自第七季肝脏移植后,两人又一次伴侣咨询,被医生要求做一个小作业:每天碰触对方三次。Steve此时正和Lynn分手,这个作业使他又开始重新审视自己和Danny这么多年漫长的关系,以及他不敢面对的感情。故事后半段H50大家庭开始轮流给Steve谈话打气,而和Lou的对话是我最喜欢的部分,大黑个队长直奔主题,而Steve面对这赤裸的剖析也难得走出蜗牛壳,坦言自己迟迟没有跨过那条线是担心一旦出现问题,他将失去现在拥有的一切:

"When I came back after my dad died, I had nothing. No parents. No relationship with my sister. No best friend. I had nothing. When Danny came storming into my life, I clung to him like a drowning man to a buoy. You think I'm bad now, you should've seen me then. Constantly invading his personal space, starting arguments over stupid shit just because I liked pissing him off. If I wasn't inviting him over to my place, I was inviting myself over to his. I called him more pet names than I can recall. I took him places that I've never taken anyone else.

"All the while, I was ingraining myself into his life as much as possible. I wanted him to want me. No, I needed him to need me because I hated the thought that I was alone without him and he was fine without me. It sounds bad, I know it does, but it's the truth. I built my foundation around him and if I lose him, it crumbles."

"当我在父亲死后回到这里的时候,我什么都没有了。没有了双亲。和我妹妹长久不联系了。没有好友。什么都没有。当丹尼闯进我的生活,我像落水之人抓住了救命稻草。你说我现在(对丹尼)有点混蛋,你该看看那时候我是什么样儿。不断侵入他的个人空间,为了惹毛他用各种理由跟他吵嘴。不是叫他来我家待着,就是跑去他家。叫过他数不清的小名。我带他去的那些地方从来没有别人跟我一起去过。

"我想尽办法在他的生活里扎下根来。我想叫他变得想要(want)我。不,我要他变得需要(need)我,因为我不愿去想如果我们不在一块儿,我将孤独一人,而他却不会缺少什么。我知道这听起来很糟,但这就是真相。我的一切以他为中心而建,如果我失去他,一切都会分崩离析。"


——这样坦诚的海豹,简直想让Danno把他揉在怀里一百遍啊一百遍(

作者很擅长制造压抑的单箭头Steve,虽然不擅表达但其实内心也有很丰富的情感。几个短篇都是类似题材,虽然结尾的双方坦诚都有些仓促,但这种剖析也不由让人感叹只有同人才能这么细细去理清一个角色内心了

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